Well, you get the drift.
Also, I have "homework" to do: there are several books I've received gratis from authors and publishing houses, in exchange for honest reviews, and I'm very behind (I feel like a college student with overdue papers to write!). Here are two of said books.
And of course, I must--I MUST--write the story of my father's courageous last days on earth. That is probably the biggest stumbling block I have to getting back in the groove here at the blog. It's been two months now since he died, and if I don't write it all down soon, I fear the memories are going to start getting hazy. So write it I must...but for some reason I can't.
In the meantime, just to give you an idea of how amazing Dad was in the face of his imminent death, here is a conversation we had on Tuesday, November 22. My brother took out his phone and videotaped us as we talked, and as you'll see, Dad's sense of humor remained intact until the end. (He passed away in the wee hours of the morning on Friday the 25th.)
Anyway, this kind of writer's block has happened to me before: back when I was writing my first novel Finding Grace (from August 2007 to December 2011), I hit two stretches where I literally couldn't type a word for weeks and weeks: when I was writing about one character's tragic Holocaust survival story; and when I was writing about another character's unplanned pregnancy and (SPOILER ALERT!) abortion. I was terrified of tackling those two very serious topics. Even though I'd done tons of research, I had no first-hand experience with either of those life-altering scenarios, so I was worried that I wouldn't be able to handle them properly, with the gravitas, compassion, and truthfulness they deserved.
I feel that way about writing the incredible story of Dad's death, too...
Speaking of Finding Grace (how's that for a segue?), I'm running an ad (or a "boosted post") on Facebook today. It's such a pro-life novel, and today is the March for Life in Washington, D.C.--so I thought it was a good time to do it. I would love to get this book in the hands of more young (and not-so-young) readers who might be touched and inspired by it. If you want to check out my Facebook author's page, you can find it by going to Facebook and typing @laurahpearl in the search box. If you do head over there, maybe you could "like" or share today's post about Finding Grace.
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So much to do, so little time! But I'm working on it!
Okay, then, that's enough for today. Now for a title...okay, I think I've got it!
I couldn't write about my baby's last day until a year had passed. I kept those memories in my heart and I wanted to get them out to preserve them but I just could not do it until the anniversary of her death. And then it seemed urgent and important that I share those words. You will get them out when you are ready.
ReplyDeleteI guess what I'm going through is normal then. It's just that there is SO MUCH to write about, and yet I can write nothing. Usually, writing is the perfect outlet for me when something is on my mind or I've been affected by an experience. But with Dad...I mean, I truly feel like I was witnessing the making of a saint. And I don't know if I can find the words to tell the story the way it should be told.
DeleteThank you so much, Beth, for taking the time to leave me this comment. It gives me hope that one day, it will all pour out of me.
(P.S. I'm going to ask your little Saint Rebecca Irene for some help with a couple of special intentions regarding my boys.)
That was a sweet video, Laura! Nice hearing your voice and watching you interact with your dad. :)
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